Innocent asana

Postures (asana) are innocent,  its about your belief and attitude towards them?

My yoga teacher said that statement in class yesterday
and.......
it hit me RIGHT on my third eye!

I mean, sure its not like I don't know that..... i mean those who know me will agree that I'm kinda deep ;)  but man have I been in self judgment critical stupor with my face again the wall in my practise of late. 

The metaphor for this statement lies in my seemingly trusty old yoga mat. 

Its demanding, wont let me get a new one, its attached to me and it doesn't give me the support I really need under my feet anymore, its  falling apart! (ok that's really me)  :/


Time for a new thought form? time to let go? time to detach and observe? time to support my own individual I AM needs as part of the whole? time to pull it all together? uuugghhhh....

I'm not going to lie, yoga is my NEMESIS. 

it antagonises me, sometimes injures me, can be my undoing, challenges me, has been my downfall and failure, is part of my destiny.  lets just say it.....That goddess Nemesis was a real bitch!

OK, so when I'm in homeostasis, breath, observation, non judgement in no-time space, being soft, it feeds me, nourishes me, grounds me, balances me, is my joy and my inner personal success, lets just say it....... thank you Goddess Nemesis for holding the contrast! 

SO then..... what to do what that old outdated critical judgement (along with my worn out yoga mat) ?

Damn..... 

I'm going to make myself a pair of these beauties from my OLD OUTDATED YOGA MAT....and if you know me, you'll know I just L.O.V.E a pair of thongs, I love to free my feet, because these feet were made for walking! :D

 And as for me? well.....time to repurpose and reinvent myself from a very new vantage point :) 

Namasté Namaskar 

Elemental Evolution Radio Show

I had my first ever radio "appearance" last Monday on the show Elemental Evolution on 5D Media Network - EGO SHOWDOWN

It was fantastic and I get to play with my sisters again this week on our next show THE EGO MELTDOWN! 

Last weeks show link here on archive;

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/thecollectiveimagination/2013/10/14/elemental-evolution

This weeks show Sunday/Monday 8pm EST 11am AEST

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/thecollectiveimagination

Liquid Feminine

Incarnation: personification of….. Who the hell am I?

If I'm so connected to spirit like a child and I’m fearful and scared of loosing that if I enter this body in its totally - is that why I control so intensely my experience of my physical vehicle? Trying to understand its workings, teetering on the edge of extreme, pushing the bounties, denying myself its pleasures?
What is this death throw? Is it actually "she" trying to be born. How the hell did I manage to get stuck in the ‘birth canal’ for 38 years?

What “are” the needs of this divine whole child? To be held, to be safe, to be loved unconditionally, “she” the grown up, holds her, embraces her in her arms and tells her she is all that and more, she is perfect, she is a personification of Christ.

The warrior, masculine in nature delivers strength from her core, she want’s to merge the liquid feminine from her deepest knowing and allow the two to find solace, let the physical speak in sensation, let the emotion speak in feeling, let the mind speak in form of pictures, sound and colour, stories and memory, let the spirit speak in its fluidity of all there is, was and can be.


Stories, manifestations linked into the world - juxtaposing the polarity of merging the two worlds my inner and outer – heart paradoxical life comfortably balanced with both extreme love of humanity and the loss of oneself, so anxious so fearful, mapping into my physical, my energetics, what I thought I was? what I was as a child - let this new human be born!
Merging nature in all beauty and integrity and concrete reality our 3D world - inner and outer balance, we are shifting as she is on all levels.

Inner spiritual - outer physical. where is the Resistance?

Releasing the pattens of this cycle that the father was holding his whole life. Power - hold the power of the mother.

Open the sacred heart space inside the heart, in its fluidity, its grace, its secret's.....

What is that What has....

But was I pushing my release button?

I sure as hell was breathing out, BIG big breath out, solar breath, the masculine breath, the expansive breath, the breath of change!

My feeling is that at this moment, as we have passed through the Solar Eclipse and the New Moon on Friday Jan 15th we have walked between worlds into the new decade 10, entering the world stage and our Authentic selves, a time to stand up, be noticed, speak our truth, unleash our vast potential -Amen!
BUT I cant help wonder how I know what I know, yet feel so unengaged, kinda flat lined, numb.....
Here's the thing - something to 'release' as we walk between the 'old' and the' new' is that of the egoic mind, wanting to control and intellectualise all that we feel (or in my case don't feel) all that we think, all we do, all that is and what has...been.... hummmm is that over analysing? remember what I'm doing here is filtering the collective thoughts through my human 'mind', my experience, you know the one I'm telling you and myself to release!
how often do we come back to acceptance? and is it coming back? it just is.... so therefore I release perfectionism and self judgement...... in this moment 'what is' is what is and 'what was' was, what was!

I believe there is a collective decision in our crystalline frameworks beyond us and within us to move away from this need to always understand, to release the 'mind' to move on from spending time coming back to acceptance, coming back? spending time? - it just is! in order to get onto that world stage, shout out and be heard, I AM, what we are saying is you are perfect outside and inside of polarity and divine and so so light.
what I am not - is ALL my human experience, that is part of me but not all of me -I release fear - I release need (*exhale* that felt good) I release the need to be switched on all the time, I AM perfect, you are prefect.
.......... I'm starting to get feeling back......not trying to keep time....... ;)

I want to get deeply personal, and I will now I'm feeling some 'feelings' back ;)
The energies of the Solar eclipse has bought up (in my matrix) some really interesting patterns, imprints, memories, stories, whatever you want to call it, around, men, male energy, and my own masculine energy, my emperor energy as I like to 'label' it.
How this plays out is something again my mind, egoic as it is tries to Analyse and as I stand here as a spectator to my own play, I guess all I can do is watch! because what has...(been) is just what 'is'..... I am the 'Observer'
I believe (this is a belief, which can change and is changing because - it just is!) that I'm a big fish in a small pond, I play small, I'm being honest here, I do what I do and sometimes I find it satisfying, but a lot of the time ( here we go, with that word 'time') I'm not, hence maybe the flat-line, numbness... now how does this relate to my emperor? my emperor pushing to be out there on that world stage.... I mentioned before I am not all my human experience, but in the 'shared reality' matrix that has in some way mapped my emotional states, what have I looked for in men?...... safety, respect, commitment, love, trust, dedication, a knowing, whats the opposite of abandonment? (oh that's a biggie!) a deep desire to worship the goddess! I know its commitment, but I really like the sound of that!
So in saying all that, what has the imprint of my male experiences learned me about my soul masculine self? what have I searched for outside of myself? inside of myself?
that I AM whole, I AM safe, I respect my place in this experience, I AM committed to my path, I love my 'self', I AM dedicated to my purpose, I will never abandon my truth, I stand in my power, I trust my chosen journey, and.... I AM a goddess! I AM ME!
Do I know this all of the time? hell no! but - when I take a deep breath, exhale that solar expansive breath, be present, make space inside, does it feel right? hell yes! and the difference is; not buying into letting my mind's demand to know why! its not coming back to acceptance - it just is acceptance..... as we revisit all of who we are... male, female.... light and dark and beyond into the divine spark, that being of complete love...... let spirit discern the pathways of your mind self, surrender to movement, allow change, create and most of all FLOW.....


So I'll see you in the green room soul family, lets do this together, as one, the stage is prepped, your lines are learned, and the curtains await to be drawn.......

Om Tat Sat ओम् तत् सत्, ‘All that is the Truth’